good year, 2009

wrapping up what i had gone through this year. i know December is still a week away, but i feel like writing it now.

the year started with a chance of Performance Bonus!

i was so happy to have received my 3.2 months bonus early this year, then I bought a DSLR camera as a reward for my own self.

having this camera in hand, it leads to a hobby - photography. since last January, I had at least went out once a month for photography sessions with friends, colleagues, and other forum members. it was awesome. until i found myself busy editing pictures all day long, then I start to realize this hobby has slowly develop my photography and photo-editing skills. months gone by, just because of DSLR, i have gone to outside malaysia and some other states in malaysia, which i have never done before.

there were many years gone before 2009, but i have never stepped in to penang, perak, kedah and many other states. i never even own a passport to have visited to other country. but today, only in this year, i have visited many, all with the reason of photography.

pictures collections are thousands, and I have upgraded my dslr for 3 times.

but today, it has been a month now since i sold my camera. it was kinda sad to have it sold.

for one reason. I have got a new job, and I am quite desperate in need of cash to support my training period. therefore I have no choice to let it go.

soon, it will be mine again.

this year is almost to an end, and I will start the new job in december.

good year started with good news, and end with even better news for me.

silly to have crush on you

i am trapped in love that wasnt supposed to live in me. it's you! day and night it kept me thinking how i wish i can be with you all the time. but i know it's not possible. so kill me now and let me leave in peace..

or hate me and let me be myself again, and stop dreaming of you.

pinch me to have me awake, so i could live again without you in my head. only you can give me the strength to have live again. you

kiss me now and together we will stuck in my dream. so kiss me not

happy father's day

it's a father's day...

i dont know how should i say this, simply, cause i never had a chance to even see my father. never in my life..

*sob*

nutty

ouch i am not in a good time. this month is the worst i ever experience. i did not settle any of my job but one, i was not paid for everything, i am penniless, and not to forget i still have about 8 days to go, before Jun come.

working as an employee is okay, just that i never have a freedom. not like when i do my full-time freelance job. doing freelance is just nice.. but yeah i have to struggle to find my job to earn cash. otherwise i'll be sitting doing nothing. but one thing about freelance, one job is enough to cover one month expenses.. isn't that good?

i am considering on my current job as an employee.. preparing myself with a better skill and good portfolio, then i'll quit my job, focusing on my hobby to be a full-time freelancer. market is world-wide, just have to be well enough in marketing. strategy is one thing that i must plan carefully, to make sure i will never regret and never want to turn back.

making a decision is quite hard isn't it?

mother's day

well you know, mother's day, and we call it "hari ibu" in my language (malay). believe it or not, i have never celebrated the day for my beloved mom. love her i do, but never celebrate any for her, not even her birthday. am i bad? or am i just too bad to be her son?

i do have the feeling of wanting to celebrate one of these days for her, to show my love, and to prove that i actually love her as my only mother. but yeah, even i cant explain why i never celebrate one. perhaps, i should do something now. but, can anyone help me? would it be weird to my mom if this is my first time celebrating for her? will she be proud, happy, or just curious?

bloggerwave?

heard of payperpost? well if you are a blogger, now you can smile cause you have another way to earn online! unlike payperpost who require your blog to live at least 2 months with 20 post, Bloggerwave accepts everyone! so why waiting? take this chance and continue blogging! btw, i just got my first $1o approved :)

Submit PPP

long vacation and that is why i didnt update this site, huh fine, yeah actually been busy. oh btw i'm submitting this blog for payperpost.com, not sure if they can actually accept this very blog to take their opportunities.. let's just hope and wait and see.. payperpost, anyone?